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pick a character + prompt (or tell me what you want &or bring your own) and get words.
Mm. [It's a quiet affirmation, as if her thoughts are elsewhere, though her smile relays the connection to the present. She reaches down to pull the blanket up further until it's under her arm, as high as it can go. Another moment passes where she simply looks at him, almost deciding something.
Against her somewhat better judgement, Kaname accepts his wordless invitation, moving slightly closer, his arm now almost trapped between them. Her eyes close, and she angles her head forward to softly rest her forehead against his shoulder. Her hand moves from the blanket to follow suit, resting there as well, fingers gently tracing his collarbone.
For a long, silent stretch, she stays like this, perfectly content to simply be. Of course she'll listen to anything he might say, even offer a brief reply of a kind if required, but she doesn't pose a question of her own just yet. When she does, it's an odd one. She opens her eyes and tilts her head to look at him.]
Be honest with me, Messer-kun. How's this shoulder doing? Does it hurt?
[ Truthfully, it's easier for him to be still once they've settled. Being so injured isn't exactly new; that's two brinks of death he's survived, first by Arad's hand, and now Kaname's. But it is the first time he's shared space with anyone in the aftermath, and he wills the dull, thudding ache of his injuries down as long as he has her on his shoulder. Instead, he focuses on the measure of her breath, strands of hair brushing against his skin. Warmth now curled up between them, however slightly. Messer almost drifts off like that, to the rhythm of her fingertips, only to register — a question?
She's asking him a question. The question. Almost immediately, on pure impulse, he replies. ]
No.
[ Yes. ]
I'm fine.
[ Or rather, that shoulder is fine, relative to the severity of every other injury he's sustained.
Meaning: everything hurts, but he's not going to be the first to admit it. "Be honest" is a command that seems to have ironically flown right over his head. It's just reflex by now to shrug it off, even if he's all but immobile thanks to it. Messer knows it, just like he knows Kaname knows it, and his gaze turns somewhat flat as he looks aside. ]
[The question is posed that way for a reason, one he'll be privy to soon enough, but despite that, she can't help her sigh of disappointment in his response. Part of her hopes-- hoped?-- that he'd be honest with her now, given the still very recent circumstances. Her hand leaves his shoulder, though her touch lingers a moment.]
I'll have to take your word for it, then.
[With a groan, the singer shifts, pushing herself up into a sitting position, and looks down at him. A small smile plays on her lips as she takes his hand, the one that was between them. She holds it, seemingly reluctant to let go, but carefully moves it, and his arm, away from him to the edge of the bed. He doesn't stay that way for long, not exactly.
Kaname scoots down and moves to lay in the space between his torso and arm, body to body, her head meant to rest on his shoulder. But she refrains from doing so, even when the rest of her is snug against him. She seeks his gaze, a new trepidation now forming in her eyes.]
Is this okay? [Will it hurt? Is it too soon? This is what you wanted, right?
So may questions whirl around her head. Coupled with the warmth of his body and the pounding of her own heart, a light haze begins to form in her mind. She blinks it back, focusing on him. He's injured, badly so, and she knows this has to be done carefully or not at all.
The thought of him still in pain, like she knows he is, needles her, the concern almost overwhelming. More than anything, Kaname wants to bury her face against him and grab hold, never letting go. The look in her eyes has to convey some of this, she's sure. Almost in a plea, she makes a request.]
Tell me what you're thinking. [She still hasn't laid her head down.]
[ Whatever he says to the contrary, he's been in her hands since they both woke up here. Messer's trust may operate as an undercurrent to everything that he does and believes, but it also carries the strength and depth of one. He accepts her movement with a watchful eye, having caught her sigh at his answer. That's how this often goes. Soothing over their wants with their duties, accepting that it might not come to more than that, for both of their sakes. This time is the first time he's felt transparent in light of it though, knowing there are no more secrets. At least not entirely.
His fingers twitch as she arranges herself under his arm, nerves alight for so many reasons. Pain, yes, but also anticipation for Kaname's sudden closeness. It is what he wants, what he's always wanted, but he'd clamped down on the urge to pursue it as if his constitution had teeth. Replaced soft things with severity, with what he was good at. Flying. Fighting.
After it all, knowing he's thought about this before, at some point that seems far so off — is this okay? ]
I've heard that what I did resembles repayment of a debt. But that's not right.
[ Mirage asked him. He couldn't refute, couldn't affirm. Messer shifts his arm, bending the crook of his elbow to draw her closer to him, to hold her as well as he's able. His threshold for pain won't betray him now, not if he can help it. His cheek remains on the pillow, watching for any sign that he can chase away the hesitation in her eyes. ]
You don't sing intending to be repaid for what you do.
[ That's never what he's heard in her voice, in the long hours of having her to focus on. ]
I don't regret this, because my duty is to protect you.
[ Anytime he used that reasoning, it was because this lied at the crux, the axis of who they are. ]
[Recognition pierces through the hesitation, understanding his words and the meaning behind them. Her immediate response is to finally rest her head on his shoulder, though she doesn't relax, not fully, her innate fear of hurting him more still keeping hold. She reaches down to draw the blanket upwards again. It's not out of need for warmth, but the need for cover, as if she wants to keep this to just themselves, despite no other souls being present.
She lets out another sigh, this one almost assuredly amused. Fingers move over to lay on his chest, palm open across his heart to feel its steady rhythm.]
When you mention duty, it almost sounds as if I'm an obligation you have to attend to. I don't think that's what you mean. Correct me if I'm wrong.
[The tone in her voice is teasing, almost baiting him to play along, but a refutation would be most welcomed, depending on its nature. It's also a way to keep her mind off the state he's in. Of course he's out of the woods, he'll live. But any long term effects have yet to be determined. There are a number of possibilities. She heard the medical staff talking, and she left before any details were mentioned. Some information is best left unknown.]
[ When the dust finally settles, it really is just the two of them. Messer thinks — this is okay. It's okay to stay alive, to be here. Under the glare of halogen, in the cold, feeling anything but. An unlikely moment, but one he can't take for granted, not in good conscience. Not now that they've sent barrier after barrier collapsing beneath this weight that grounds him, that rests his wings. In reply, he's silent, deathly so, invoking his own callsign. Some of his former sharpness glints through, even as his opposite arm shifts, crossing over his middle. Messer catches Kaname's hand and steadies it over his heart. ]
Don't mistake me, Kaname-san.
[ His fingers tighten over her hand, willful and kind, meeting her playfulness with a piercing gaze. He's seen it, how she's content to play off her concerns and her whispers of melancholy by offering smiles, by placating. They're not so dissimilar. Except she has always been too honest, and he has always been too headstrong.
His thumb trails over the top of her hand, over the most delicate of bones, atop the sound of his heart. His gaze stays intent on her. ]
[Excitement, anticipation, and nervousness overtake her all at once. The intensity of his gaze is hypnotic, she can't move. She can't look away. Her breath catches, suddenly even more aware of their diminished proximity. Is there any space left between them? The press of her chest to the side of his when she finally does breathe in says no.
Finally, as if any lingering doubts are pulled from her, she gives in, relaxing. The tension leaves her, and Messer should feel the weight of her head against him, like he's an anchor keeping her from retreating. She shivers more, for many reasons, yet the cold isn't among them.]
I don't... think I can. [Words escape her, much like her senses. Locked in this connection, attention focused all on her, Kaname feels knots forming inside, more intense and prevalent than anything she's felt before. Concerts, under a single spotlight, media interviews, leading auditions, or giving reports to packed rooms, even singing on the front lines-- all of those pale in comparison.
Eyes not leaving his (still unable), she takes his hand in her own, tightening as well. Quietly, gently, she guides them both towards her, movement ceasing once her lips are placed softly on his bandaged knuckles as if she's whispering to him.]
[ There's something reverent in the way that she moves now, careful not to disturb this fragile thing between them. A balance of two points, and all of Messer's hesitation burned away at where they intersect. Dealing death, skirting its outline time after time... Messer's prevalence of strength and skill have carried him on the wind, up until now. In this moment, he's pushed a measure of that trust into Kaname's slim hands, the fingers still captured in his own as her lips caress over the divots of his knuckles. Weight for weight.
In return, she's given him understanding to the questions he'd never thought he had long enough to ask. Something ticks in his throat, at his pulse points, floods his chest with a feeling not unlike adrenaline, even if it's softer at the corners. With a quiet grunt, Messer shifts on his elbow again, taking more care now that Kaname is fit against it. It's not the same reckless move he'd tried earlier, but a kinder version of it — pushing himself up onto his side to better wind his arm around her. Holding her is easier when he faces her, using the movement to free his hand from hers, if only to ghost his knuckles across her cheek, over the tracks her tears have made in the dust.
Messer goes forehead to forehead with her, having nothing else to say to the questions they've both had, that have slept too long under other circumstances. Right now, with one hand at the small of her back and the other gliding through the hair behind her ear, there isn't anything else for him. ]
[Kaname inhales sharply, his sudden movements and the grunt of effort (and with what she expects is pain), catching her off guard enough to break the trance. She moves her hand the same time as his, hers pressed against his chest, fingertips resting on his clavicle. In fact, that's where both are situated, one on either shoulder. There's nothing she can do but shift with him. Luckily, it's not a big move, though she's higher up on the bed. Or he's lower down. Either way, their faces are now level, and she can see the look in his eyes.]
Messer-kun, you shouldn't be do--
[Her breath catches, and she can feel her own heart speed up. When she feels his hand on her back, she starts, a jolt of electricity so clearly to blame. She swallows, closing her eyes as his knuckles trace her across her cheek, reveling in the touch. Foreheads meets, and his fingers weaving through her hair, a happy sigh-- a very happy sigh-- escapes her.
Control ebbs, and she reaches around, arm snaking over his shoulder, around to his back, then up the back of his neck, fingers taking in every contour and muscle there. Again, she's tangled up in his hair, holding his head to her. She cracks one bright blue eye open to look at him and issue a warning.]
Just remember how scared I'll be if you hurt yourself further. [The words are meant to act as a deterrent to prevent anything else from happening. Much more would definitely serve as a setback on his road to complete recovery. Still, while there is a line, they haven't crossed it just yet.
Angles adjust, and her eye closes again. His head to moved forward so his lips will meets hers. Kaname kisses him, gently at first, then more eagerly. It's not demanding, not yet. The message is there, a promise of what's to come, if this works out. What she wants, what she imagines he wants, too, but he might never have dared imagine. It's all there, just waiting for him to get better.]
[ Messer leans in for her as their lips meet, encouraged by the touch she tracks up the back of his neck, through his hair. An action that leaves nothing but light shapes on the back of his eyes, and the sound of his heartbeat in his ears. It's thunderous in comparison to how softly it carries out — their first kiss is gentle, supportive, and he almost fails to restrain himself on the second. It'd be so easy to fall into more, to take this want and fly with it, but her warning sits pretty in the back of his mind. Innocuous, melodic. He tilts his jaw, leaving a lingering kiss on her bottom lip. His own quirk, just at the corners, and if she's quick, she'll catch it before he breaks it.
A small smile, meant for her. As they usually are. He exhales, a short huff, touching his brow to hers again. ]
Understood.
[ Instinctively, Messer falls into line with her, eyes opening to wisps of red on his peripherals, the shape her lashes make against her cheek. His fingers have traveled through her length of hair to settle on her neck, thumb just shy of her jawline. If this is the last thing he'll ever do, he knows that being tangled up in her like this just once would've been worth it.
But it won't be the last time.
Knowing that, he moves to settle down on his side, urging her to lay with him. He can know what unspoken promise exists between them now, but he's still not going to be quick to let go of her. ]
[The warning is for him, to remind him of what could happen. But also, with those words, she knows he'll be able to control things so they don't go too far. It's up to him to make sure they're both okay in the end, him physically, and her emotionally, as knowing she might be the cause for his pain would be a tremendous weight on her. He'd never allow that to happen.
Manipulation isn't a skill she likes to employ at all, but sometimes it's required. She knows herself well enough to have foreseen her probable inability to take charge once things began. And she's right.
When Messer breaks the kiss, his smile, his exhale, his touch, Kaname knows she made the right call. Her breath is heavy, bordering on a pant. His thumb on her jawline, hand behind her head... She moves, she needs to. Ducking her head, she buries her face into the crook of his neck, red locks tickling his jaw, now now immersing it. Tucked against him, she regains control, steadying her breathing, closing her eyes to feel both their heartbeats. Vision clears, the darkened edges slowly abating.
She breathes in deeply, as much as she can, her chest against his, taking in his scent. Smoke, fire, sweat. There's more. The underlying scent of him. She relishes the sensation, arms slinking around him, one on either side, to hold him close, lest he vanish upon release.]
Messer. [His name escapes her, a sigh, meant for no one else. If she's aware she said it, there's no indication. Kaname is lost. In him, in them. If prompted, she'd say being found isn't an option.]
[ If anything can be said about him, beyond his solemnity and his silence, it's that Messer is a patient man. And not always as unaffected as he seems, despite that. Something about her shortness of breath against his mouth makes her sudden movement a hazy blur, and Messer finds himself full of her in the same instant. So full. Pressed flush to him, taking his breath away in kind. Messer knows her voice inside and out. He cherishes it. Hearing his name like that, quiet, breathlessly — a jolt races up his back, but he minds it. Its lattices only make it so far under the responsibility he feels for her. His arms circle about her, one to her shoulders, one to her waist. To steady them both.
To prove that even now, he is listening. ]
Kaname. [ He murmurs her name into her hair, no formality attached, cheek pressed to her crown. ] It's alright.
[ Those words have been Messer's mantra for so long, but there's a new light to it. For the first time that he can remember since Marienburg, Messer doesn't wonder about the merit of his own life. Even if he's carefully locked what might have been away, her effect is unmistakable: throwing open all the windows, warming the long halls of his heart. Her deep breaths resonate in his chest, and he tightens his hold on her in reassurance.
It's alright because they're both here. Tired, hurt, holding the pieces together between them. Together. ]
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Against her somewhat better judgement, Kaname accepts his wordless invitation, moving slightly closer, his arm now almost trapped between them. Her eyes close, and she angles her head forward to softly rest her forehead against his shoulder. Her hand moves from the blanket to follow suit, resting there as well, fingers gently tracing his collarbone.
For a long, silent stretch, she stays like this, perfectly content to simply be. Of course she'll listen to anything he might say, even offer a brief reply of a kind if required, but she doesn't pose a question of her own just yet. When she does, it's an odd one. She opens her eyes and tilts her head to look at him.]
Be honest with me, Messer-kun. How's this shoulder doing? Does it hurt?
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She's asking him a question. The question. Almost immediately, on pure impulse, he replies. ]
No.
[ Yes. ]
I'm fine.
[ Or rather, that shoulder is fine, relative to the severity of every other injury he's sustained.
Meaning: everything hurts, but he's not going to be the first to admit it. "Be honest" is a command that seems to have ironically flown right over his head. It's just reflex by now to shrug it off, even if he's all but immobile thanks to it. Messer knows it, just like he knows Kaname knows it, and his gaze turns somewhat flat as he looks aside. ]
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I'll have to take your word for it, then.
[With a groan, the singer shifts, pushing herself up into a sitting position, and looks down at him. A small smile plays on her lips as she takes his hand, the one that was between them. She holds it, seemingly reluctant to let go, but carefully moves it, and his arm, away from him to the edge of the bed. He doesn't stay that way for long, not exactly.
Kaname scoots down and moves to lay in the space between his torso and arm, body to body, her head meant to rest on his shoulder. But she refrains from doing so, even when the rest of her is snug against him. She seeks his gaze, a new trepidation now forming in her eyes.]
Is this okay? [Will it hurt? Is it too soon? This is what you wanted, right?
So may questions whirl around her head. Coupled with the warmth of his body and the pounding of her own heart, a light haze begins to form in her mind. She blinks it back, focusing on him. He's injured, badly so, and she knows this has to be done carefully or not at all.
The thought of him still in pain, like she knows he is, needles her, the concern almost overwhelming. More than anything, Kaname wants to bury her face against him and grab hold, never letting go. The look in her eyes has to convey some of this, she's sure. Almost in a plea, she makes a request.]
Tell me what you're thinking. [She still hasn't laid her head down.]
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His fingers twitch as she arranges herself under his arm, nerves alight for so many reasons. Pain, yes, but also anticipation for Kaname's sudden closeness. It is what he wants, what he's always wanted, but he'd clamped down on the urge to pursue it as if his constitution had teeth. Replaced soft things with severity, with what he was good at. Flying. Fighting.
After it all, knowing he's thought about this before, at some point that seems far so off — is this okay? ]
I've heard that what I did resembles repayment of a debt. But that's not right.
[ Mirage asked him. He couldn't refute, couldn't affirm. Messer shifts his arm, bending the crook of his elbow to draw her closer to him, to hold her as well as he's able. His threshold for pain won't betray him now, not if he can help it. His cheek remains on the pillow, watching for any sign that he can chase away the hesitation in her eyes. ]
You don't sing intending to be repaid for what you do.
[ That's never what he's heard in her voice, in the long hours of having her to focus on. ]
I don't regret this, because my duty is to protect you.
[ Anytime he used that reasoning, it was because this lied at the crux, the axis of who they are. ]
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She lets out another sigh, this one almost assuredly amused. Fingers move over to lay on his chest, palm open across his heart to feel its steady rhythm.]
When you mention duty, it almost sounds as if I'm an obligation you have to attend to. I don't think that's what you mean. Correct me if I'm wrong.
[The tone in her voice is teasing, almost baiting him to play along, but a refutation would be most welcomed, depending on its nature. It's also a way to keep her mind off the state he's in. Of course he's out of the woods, he'll live. But any long term effects have yet to be determined. There are a number of possibilities. She heard the medical staff talking, and she left before any details were mentioned. Some information is best left unknown.]
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[ When the dust finally settles, it really is just the two of them. Messer thinks — this is okay. It's okay to stay alive, to be here. Under the glare of halogen, in the cold, feeling anything but. An unlikely moment, but one he can't take for granted, not in good conscience. Not now that they've sent barrier after barrier collapsing beneath this weight that grounds him, that rests his wings. In reply, he's silent, deathly so, invoking his own callsign. Some of his former sharpness glints through, even as his opposite arm shifts, crossing over his middle. Messer catches Kaname's hand and steadies it over his heart. ]
Don't mistake me, Kaname-san.
[ His fingers tighten over her hand, willful and kind, meeting her playfulness with a piercing gaze. He's seen it, how she's content to play off her concerns and her whispers of melancholy by offering smiles, by placating. They're not so dissimilar. Except she has always been too honest, and he has always been too headstrong.
His thumb trails over the top of her hand, over the most delicate of bones, atop the sound of his heart. His gaze stays intent on her. ]
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Finally, as if any lingering doubts are pulled from her, she gives in, relaxing. The tension leaves her, and Messer should feel the weight of her head against him, like he's an anchor keeping her from retreating. She shivers more, for many reasons, yet the cold isn't among them.]
I don't... think I can. [Words escape her, much like her senses. Locked in this connection, attention focused all on her, Kaname feels knots forming inside, more intense and prevalent than anything she's felt before. Concerts, under a single spotlight, media interviews, leading auditions, or giving reports to packed rooms, even singing on the front lines-- all of those pale in comparison.
Eyes not leaving his (still unable), she takes his hand in her own, tightening as well. Quietly, gently, she guides them both towards her, movement ceasing once her lips are placed softly on his bandaged knuckles as if she's whispering to him.]
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In return, she's given him understanding to the questions he'd never thought he had long enough to ask. Something ticks in his throat, at his pulse points, floods his chest with a feeling not unlike adrenaline, even if it's softer at the corners. With a quiet grunt, Messer shifts on his elbow again, taking more care now that Kaname is fit against it. It's not the same reckless move he'd tried earlier, but a kinder version of it — pushing himself up onto his side to better wind his arm around her. Holding her is easier when he faces her, using the movement to free his hand from hers, if only to ghost his knuckles across her cheek, over the tracks her tears have made in the dust.
Messer goes forehead to forehead with her, having nothing else to say to the questions they've both had, that have slept too long under other circumstances. Right now, with one hand at the small of her back and the other gliding through the hair behind her ear, there isn't anything else for him. ]
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Messer-kun, you shouldn't be do--
[Her breath catches, and she can feel her own heart speed up. When she feels his hand on her back, she starts, a jolt of electricity so clearly to blame. She swallows, closing her eyes as his knuckles trace her across her cheek, reveling in the touch. Foreheads meets, and his fingers weaving through her hair, a happy sigh-- a very happy sigh-- escapes her.
Control ebbs, and she reaches around, arm snaking over his shoulder, around to his back, then up the back of his neck, fingers taking in every contour and muscle there. Again, she's tangled up in his hair, holding his head to her. She cracks one bright blue eye open to look at him and issue a warning.]
Just remember how scared I'll be if you hurt yourself further. [The words are meant to act as a deterrent to prevent anything else from happening. Much more would definitely serve as a setback on his road to complete recovery. Still, while there is a line, they haven't crossed it just yet.
Angles adjust, and her eye closes again. His head to moved forward so his lips will meets hers. Kaname kisses him, gently at first, then more eagerly. It's not demanding, not yet. The message is there, a promise of what's to come, if this works out. What she wants, what she imagines he wants, too, but he might never have dared imagine. It's all there, just waiting for him to get better.]
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A small smile, meant for her. As they usually are. He exhales, a short huff, touching his brow to hers again. ]
Understood.
[ Instinctively, Messer falls into line with her, eyes opening to wisps of red on his peripherals, the shape her lashes make against her cheek. His fingers have traveled through her length of hair to settle on her neck, thumb just shy of her jawline. If this is the last thing he'll ever do, he knows that being tangled up in her like this just once would've been worth it.
But it won't be the last time.
Knowing that, he moves to settle down on his side, urging her to lay with him. He can know what unspoken promise exists between them now, but he's still not going to be quick to let go of her. ]
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Manipulation isn't a skill she likes to employ at all, but sometimes it's required. She knows herself well enough to have foreseen her probable inability to take charge once things began. And she's right.
When Messer breaks the kiss, his smile, his exhale, his touch, Kaname knows she made the right call. Her breath is heavy, bordering on a pant. His thumb on her jawline, hand behind her head... She moves, she needs to. Ducking her head, she buries her face into the crook of his neck, red locks tickling his jaw, now now immersing it. Tucked against him, she regains control, steadying her breathing, closing her eyes to feel both their heartbeats. Vision clears, the darkened edges slowly abating.
She breathes in deeply, as much as she can, her chest against his, taking in his scent. Smoke, fire, sweat. There's more. The underlying scent of him. She relishes the sensation, arms slinking around him, one on either side, to hold him close, lest he vanish upon release.]
Messer. [His name escapes her, a sigh, meant for no one else. If she's aware she said it, there's no indication. Kaname is lost. In him, in them. If prompted, she'd say being found isn't an option.]
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To prove that even now, he is listening. ]
Kaname. [ He murmurs her name into her hair, no formality attached, cheek pressed to her crown. ] It's alright.
[ Those words have been Messer's mantra for so long, but there's a new light to it. For the first time that he can remember since Marienburg, Messer doesn't wonder about the merit of his own life. Even if he's carefully locked what might have been away, her effect is unmistakable: throwing open all the windows, warming the long halls of his heart. Her deep breaths resonate in his chest, and he tightens his hold on her in reassurance.
It's alright because they're both here. Tired, hurt, holding the pieces together between them. Together. ]